The Premonition

My friend Tammy and I were hanging out one day a few months back and listening to Cee Cee Winans. Our favorite song is "Higher Place of Praise" and as we were singing and praising God Tammy had a premonition. She has had only two prior to this event. She had one before her daddy died and she had one before her mother died. The day we were together she burst out crying and told me she had had another one. This time the premonition was about me. She didn't want to tell me but I forced her. The premonition was that God wants me to come home soon and my time will soon be gone on this earth.

Since that time, I've been thinking more about my life and the choices I've made. I've come to the conclusion that the only regret I have is that I have held so much love inside that could have been shared with others. In trying to protect my own heart from hurt I withheld love. I think about leaving my family and them not having received all the love I had to offer. I think about the people I've met in my life who could have benefited from more of me. I want to leave knowing that I didn't hold back.

This summer Tammy and I are spring cleaning our houses together. It is the time to get things in order. This summer I'm taking off school and giving more of myself to my children, family, and friends. This summer I'm appreciating the wonderful man who has come into my life. I'm listening more closely and paying attention to the little things. I don't know when God will take me home. But right now I am alive and I am thankful to be given the chance to do away with regrets! I am thankful to be given the chance to love...at such a time as this!